packing, packing and planning :)

Getting all set to go. Lots of packing, as I think the kids will be coming with us, well not all of them, but 3 of them. I WISH they were all coming. It's probably going to be the hardest thing I have ever done leaving Michael and Summer. I have NEVER been away from them. EVER. I can't even fathom being away for such a long period of time, I feel sick thinking about it. But, I guess you do what you have to do, right?
9 days to go....

To bring them or not to bring them...

We are really on the fence about bringing the kids with us. It will cost so much more if we do, and that's a really big issue for us. Yet, they have been planning on coming (the 2 teens) and are really looking forward to it. I can't even imagine leaving little Alex at home all that time. He is almost 3, but not quite 'typical'. He doesn't speak in intelligible words, but I'm like his 'de-coder' and I understand ALL of his ways and needs.
Yet, our facilitator recommends we leave him home. I just don't know. Yes, we have the tickets, but for the most part they are refundable. I just cannot believe the cost of adoption! There are so many beautiful children I would LOVE to go and rescue from a terrible life, but how? I really have to work on the faith thing, never have been very good at that :)

13 days...

15 more days!

We leave in 18 days!

Remember this movie? Overboard

You know how when the house was such a mess, she took out a garden hose and started spraying...well after being sick for over a week around here, I'm going out looking for my hose!

this is how I have felt the last few days..SICK SICK SICK

BLAH