I think my life would be easier if I had never gone to 'my special country'. Why?
Because it changed me, and now I have to come back and live my life like 'normal' and it's hard to do. I don't know why exactly, but it really had a significant impact on me. Not just the orphanage, I know why that did, but the country... the sights and sounds and smells...the people, the countryside, ALEXANDER. I just think about our trip all the time and long to be there again.
It doesn't help matters that I feel a certain little boy has been put in my heart for a reason. He is in 'my special country' and doesn't have much of a future to look forward to. If we could find a way to pay for another adoption, he would be a Lewandoski :)
I just miss it.
Artiom is doing very well. His adjustment was a breeze. All the kids love him so much! He is playing with Papa right now and he loves that! Such a happy little guy.
Adoption is a beautiful thing......