just thinking out loud

I was just catching up on the blogs of the people traveling right now (in Ukraine) adopting.  When I read those and see the pictures I get transported back in time....to an almost indescribable place in my heart.

 The memories are so deep for me.  So life changing.  So special. 

I want to go back so bad.  I want a little child that has known no mama to run into my arms.  I want to change his or her life...

I find it so depressing to not be going back. 

I can't listen to the music I listened to on the trip....I  just can't.  It's too.... I don't know, deep and meaningful and no place to put it.. kind of thing.

 If you get what I mean...heck, I don't even know if I entirely get it.

But I look at the children that are waiting...and waiting.... and I read the blogs of the families over there now and my heart just screams out..."LORD, send me back!" Please!!!!

Yet, I know tomorrow I'll be no closer to going back than I am tonight. 

I just pray and pray that someday we WILL.