I was just catching up on the blogs of the people traveling right now (in Ukraine) adopting. When I read those and see the pictures I get transported back in time....to an almost indescribable place in my heart.
The memories are so deep for me. So life changing. So special.
I want to go back so bad. I want a little child that has known no mama to run into my arms. I want to change his or her life...
I find it so depressing to not be going back.
I can't listen to the music I listened to on the trip....I just can't. It's too.... I don't know, deep and meaningful and no place to put it.. kind of thing.
If you get what I mean...heck, I don't even know if I entirely get it.
But I look at the children that are waiting...and waiting.... and I read the blogs of the families over there now and my heart just screams out..."LORD, send me back!" Please!!!!
Yet, I know tomorrow I'll be no closer to going back than I am tonight.
I just pray and pray that someday we WILL.